“30 Things I’m Happy I Tried and Learned Before 30″

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This could be a list where I look back and regret all of the moments that were difficult and frustrating and painful, but instead, before my 30th birthday, I’m going to look back at these moments with gratitude and grace, as these moments helped me get to 30. I don’t think everyone should go through these moments for growth; and I can ensure you I was not enjoying myself during them, but looking back, I’m happy I went through them.

30. I had my heart ripped out of my chest. Heartbreak sucks, but there are moments where it saves you. My heartbreak came in the form of a stone that gathered moss. It was a small tear in my heart that brought up things in my life I still needed to work on. Things like my relationship with my family, myself, my self worth, and my job. Without this heartbreak I wouldn’t have done the work to do the work.

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29. I pushed myself to the point of total exhaustion. I was a workaholic; I worked myself to the point of an emotional breakdown: anger, resentment and physical and mental exhaustion. Why? Because of fear. Because I never thought I would make it. Because I thought that was the only way to work. If it wasn’t for this lesson, I would never know what my boundaries are. I would never be able to identify this fear that sneaks up on me relentlessly; I now can see it from a mile away and not let it embody me.

28. I failed, learned, and failed again. In my first job out of college, I made a lot of mistakes. I felt misguided and like I had no mentorship or support, so I spoke up. I spoke up after three months and received a little help putting me in a much better direction than I would be otherwise. When you fail, you learn about what you need in the process of failing to succeed.

27. I acted like a mean girl, and apologized. When I was growing up, I was made fun of and bullied. Then my braces were removed, I learned how to straighten my hair, and there I was on the other side of the coin. I became a mean girl because I thought that was what would keep me popular, and what would keep me “safe”. I learned a lot of hard lessons, and even after apologizing to those I wronged, I saw mean girls transpire in my life years later. Because I had been a mean girl at 16, I now can spot the mean girls as being hurt, confused, sad women who are alone and afraid. I no longer am afraid of the mean girls and I can now help them.

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26. I moved. This is literal and figurative. I moved three times in high school and it was a painful and difficult process for me. I talk about this a little more in my TEDx talk. Moving to all different schools and embracing who I am was the biggest gift I could have asked for. Looking back, I don’t know if I would be so willing to step into new places, and meet new people if it wasn’t for those moments of sitting alone in the library for lunch. Moving moved me to never settle for what’s comfortable and reach for what is new and maybe a little scary.

25. I drank, ate, drank, repeat. I was in a sorority, went to a state school and then worked in nightlife and hospitality. The amount of alcohol I consumed over 10 years and the amount of food I ate mindlessly changed the way I now look at consumption. I am so grateful I was safe enough and smart enough where nothing happened to me or to anyone else besides my own poor body. By over indulging in things that took me out of my reality, I now have a lot of self control and connection to what I consume.

24. I lived in NYC. Although I was born 20 minutes outside of NYC, both my families on both sides are three generations of New Yorkers, so NYC is literally running through my blood stream. I lived in NYC for 5 years and during those years I fell in and out of love with NYC and myself.  Every single person should live in NYC even for a little bit if you have the opportunity to. It will harden you and soften you and straighten you out while also tearing you apart.

23. I lived in California. If anyone graduated high school or college around 2000, you should know the “sunscreen song”: a song that epitomizes all of the lessons learned in life. One of which is “live in New York and leave before it makes you too hard, live in California and leave before it makes you too soft.” It has been a very cathartic three years living in LA. I have found a comfort zone there that feels like a womb. I have found caring, loving considerate friends who are my family. I have found pieces of myself that I was too busy to look for when living in NYC.

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22. I committed to anything. For years, I ran around like a chicken with its head cut off. I sprinted from friend group to friend group barely catching up with myself. I then started to make little commitments. Commitments to friends I refused to break, commitments to myself that I made a priority and as I stood true by these commitments I also realized how important it is to follow through with things that are important to you.

21. I set boundaries. I have definitely allowed for people to take advantage of me. I am the type of person for years that offered my services, connections, brain and heart to anyone that would ask. Guess what? No one likes a martyr. This leads to resentment, heart ache and frustration. I started to see how important it was to set boundaries after I hadn’t for so long. It gave me enough me for me.

20. I ignored the gossip about myself. Ever deal with a situation where you hear what people say about you when they actually have nothing to do with the situation? One of the biggest lessons I learned before 30 was to never defend yourself against a lie. By doing so, you are dragging yourself into the lie. In circumstances like this, I learned to say nothing, stay calm and rise above it.

19. I chose my people. For so long, I didn’t think I had to choose the people who have access to my deepest darkest fears, secrets and emotions and that they would either choose me or I could just make everyone that person. This is an important one. Not everyone has the capacity to hold space for you. You have to be selective with who you let in close and who you let show up for you.

18. I broke someone’s heart. This one is harder than having your heart broken. When you hurt someone you love it feels like you are dying inside, but what’s worse than not letting someone go is holding on to them for your own benefit. I still remember really hurting someone only to see them find all of the happiness they deserved and more and remembering they would have never had that if I held onto them because I was afraid to be alone.

17. I learned how to love being alone. Alone doesn’t mean lonely. For so long I refused to be alone. I am an extrovert and wanted to always be around people until I realized I didn’t know myself. By giving myself the time and energy I had been giving everyone else, I was finally able to learn more about myself.

16. I. Slowed. The. F. Down. I go a million miles per minute. I totaled a car, broke my foot, hurt a lot of people and myself by moving too fast for my own good. By slowing my physical body down through yoga and breathing, and slowing my mental body down through meditation, I have learned the practice of listening to myself. My natural tendency is to be fast, so learning the lessons on how to slow down has been crucial for me.

15. I trusted myself. The worst thing I have done over the years is to have not listened to my gut or intuition. That little feeling that says this guy isn’t going to treat you right or don’t hire this person has been squashed by my need to get things done quickly. This is NOT OK. It is so important to listen to that part of yourself whispering for your attention. This part has saved me from some really bad mistakes that could have continued for a lot longer than they should have.

14. I cried. A lot. For years, I thought crying in public was wrong. I didn’t cry in public for 4 years because I was told it was weak and unacceptable. To cry is to show strength. If you can show your deepest emotions in public, that’s pretty incredible. I learned my vulnerability and empathy are gifts that I refuse to keep for myself.

13. I fell in love with a truly good human. I was super into guys that just didn’t like me for years. These guys would judge me, put me on a pedestal but not date me among many other things that just didn’t feel good. I finally made a choice to fall in love with someone who loves me unconditionally, who is a considerate, genuine man who works on himself and can own up to his wrongs and give me the space to do the same.

12. I opened up to my family. I did serious work to have an open, honest and loving relationship with my family. Everyone thinks they have this until the holidays when your parent says one tiny thing and you feel like throwing a temper tantrum. I confronted my parents about little things that I buried from years of my life that had very little to do with them so that I could forgive them and learn more about myself in the process.

11. I faced my demons. Four years ago I pulled out a journal to start to write. I hadn’t written in 5 years but finally was giving myself some time to express myself. I opened up my journal and wrote: “Would you date you?” And then answered, “No, maybe in two years.” This shed so much light on the self hatred I had. I didn’t love myself enough to be with me, so who else would want to be with me? I took the time and energy to find as many ways of support as I could to do the work on facing my demons. I took responsibility for things holding me back, I went deep inside and asked myself what really made me happy and I removed everything that didn’t.

10. I said yes. Five years ago, I was asked by a friend to work a conference called Summit Series. I took ten vacation days from work and used them to work on a cruise ship. Then I met my current partner, Tony Hsieh, at Summit Series, and when he asked a group to come to Vegas, I said yes. After an inspiring conversation at a coffee job and a few phone calls later, I left my job and started a company across the country in a city I had been to once before. Taking risks leads to unexpected transformations you can’t possibly imagine until you say yes and jump in.

9. I dreamed big. 5 years ago, I woke up at 3:00 AM and had a vision for a non-profit music festival in Central Park. I never had been to a festival and yet I created a huge PowerPoint presentation with meticulous analysis of what it would take. I was then introduced to Ryan Gall and Hugh Evans through a big dreamer, Bobby Bailey, who were working on something very similar. I ended up being one of the first few people who worked on the Global Citizen Festival in 2012, and watched it become a reality. Now as a proud board member, I look back realizing I never would have become involved if I didn’t push myself to dream big and then follow through on those dreams.

8. I gave up. I have had SO many ideas for businesses. They weren’t just ideas, though. I would create case studies, research reports, extensive business plans, go after investors and identify partners until I realized this just wasn’t what I wanted to be doing. As Elizabeth Gilbert brilliantly writes her in book Big Magic, sometimes you have to let go of ideas that are not yours so they can travel to someone else who will implement them. I have seen so many ideas I have attempted to birth over the years come back to me fully flushed out by others, and I know by letting go of something that’s not my dream, I open the door to someone whose dream it is.

7. I educated myself. I realized that if i don’t continually educate myself, then I won’t grow.  There is nothing worse than a know it all, so this is not what I mean. I realized I can never know it all as the world is constantly moving and growing and the only thing I can do is attempt to gather data and knowledge as much as I can.

6. I maintained a state of gratitude. There are times that I am about to complain, and I stop myself and remind myself how much I do have. It’s so easy as an entrepreneur to compare myself to everyone else and use their social media pages as an example of what I want. It’s a lot harder but more fulfilling to be grateful for what is and has come to you.

5. I forgave myself. I made tons of mistakes. I have definitely hurt myself and others as I mentioned, but it was so important for me to realize that it’s okay to forgive myself. There is nothing more poisonous than swallowing self resentment every day of your life.

4. I forgave others. I realized that it was okay to forgive others but not necessarily let them back in. Forgiving someone does not mean they have to be your best friend or even acquaintance but it means you are setting yourself free of the torture that holding grudges creates.

3. I shared with others. Over the years I’ve shared my house, my learnings, my failures and my pain with others. I’ve opened up and taught others through my stories, I’ve been unabashed with my writing and have received notes of gratitude because I haven’t been afraid or selfish with sharing.

2. I learned the power of vulnerability. There is absolutely nothing more powerful with connection than vulnerability. When I share a story that is deep within my core, or cry or ask for help, I give other’s permission around me to do the same. This is the greatest gift I could ever ask for.

1. I learned to love myself no matter what. Turning 30 is scary. I haven’t accomplished all I want to accomplish, I haven’t done all I have set out to do, and who cares? Life is about embracing where you are, loving the tiny beautiful things about yourself, and the world as Cheryl Strayed talks about in her incredible book and not letting anyone ever convince you otherwise.

We also see Margot Robbie take on Sharon Tate

The new trailer for Quentin Tarantino's upcoming movie Once Upon a Time in Hollywood gives a look at the Manson Family. In the previous clip, we saw Brad Pitt and Leonardo DiCaprio at their funniest. Now, we get to see Margot Robbie take on actress Sharon Tate, Lena Dunham become a cult member, and how the fictional and real-life story lines will intersect in the film.

Per a press release, the film—that follows a fictional story set around the time of the real-life Manson murders—"visits 1969 Los Angeles, where everything is changing, as TV star Rick Dalton (DiCaprio) and his longtime stunt double Cliff Booth (Pitt) make their way around an industry they hardly recognize anymore."

In this clip, after being introduced to Dalton and Booth, viewers get to see how the latter ends up mingling with the Manson Family. As Booth picks up a girl (Margaret Qualley) on the side of the road, he unknowingly welcomes a Manson family member into his life and begins to visit their ranch. The fiction and real-life stories intersect when we find out that Dalton lives next store to Tate, who was murdered by the members of Charles Manson's cult in 1969.

Watch the new trailer for Once Upon A Time In Hollywood ahead of its July 26 theatrical release, below.


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This photo proves that they are the chillest onscreen family

Sophie Turner just posted a photo of herself, Maisie Williams, and Isaac Hempstead Wright—aka the Stark siblings—to her Instagram, showing just what the three used to get up to when the Game of Thrones cameras weren't rolling.

The photo shows Wright looking quite pleased with himself while sitting on a makeshift throne, wearing no pants. As he should be, seeing as (spoiler) his character, Bran, won the Iron Throne this weekend. Williams, meanwhile, is looking way too cool to be involved in the shenanigans, wearing a pair of black sunglasses and staring absently off-camera. As for Turner, she's looking away from her onscreen brother, too, nervously smoking a Juul.

"The pack survived," Turner captioned the photo.

This photo just goes to prove that the Stark siblings are the chillest onscreen family. (It also proves, yet again, that Turner's social media is an absolute delight.)

We're actually a little sad that this footage didn't make it into the final season, considering how many modern-day objects have been spotted in the show's last few episodes.

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Meet Ashley

Miley Cyrus shared the trailer for her forthcoming Black Mirror episode, and it's basically Hannah Montana set in a dystopian future. Cyrus is a pink wig-wearing pop star named Ashley who is rolling out an in-home virtual assistant, named Ashley Too, that looks like her and shares her voice. But, as is the case with every Black Mirror episode, this technology is not as cute and fun as it's advertised to be.

In the trailer, we get the idea that Ashley is all about wanting fans to "believe" in themselves—but underneath that pink wig, maybe she doesn't feel that same self-love. After Ashley Too introduces herself to fan and new owner Rachel, promising to be her friend, we get a look at Ashley's darker side. She's depressed and tired of the pop star life. A record label executive says to several people in the room, "She doesn't understand how fragile all this is." As they consider upping her dose of medication, Ashley's life is on a downward slope. "It's getting so hard to keep doing this," she voices over glimpses of a police car chase, performances, and breakdowns backstage.

But back to the technology: Does Ashley's breakdown also mean the breakdown of Ashley Too? Looks like it. We see Rachel's virtual assistant screaming, "Get that cable out of my ass! Holy shit! Pull it out," breathing a sigh of relief as soon as they pull it out. A title card then reveals the episode name, "Rachel, Jack, and Ashley Too."

Watch the full trailer and get a full view of Cyrus' cyborg-esque pop star look, below. Black Mirror returns to Netflix on June 5.

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Several actresses allegedly had "issues" with him

Lena Waithe's Showtime series, The Chi, just lost one of its main characters. Jason Mitchell, who was also set to appear in the Netflix film Desperados, has been dropped from both projects following multiple allegations of misconduct. He has also been dropped by his agent and manager.

Hollywood Reporter heard from a source "with knowledge" of The Chi, who says that Tiffany Boone, the actress who plays Mitchell's girlfriend on the show, is just one of several actresses who had "issues" with him. She eventually told producers at Fox21 that she could no longer work with him after filing several sexual harassment complaints. Apparently, her fiancé, Dear White People co-star Marque Richardson, would join her on set when she would shoot with Mitchell.

While news of Mitchell's alleged misconduct is just now beginning to surface, it looks like the ball started rolling on the fallout weeks ago. He was dropped from Desperados and replaced by Lamorne Morris before filming began. A source from the production team said that the producers received "specific information" that they reviewed and acted on quickly. Similarly, a source familiar with Mitchell's former agent, UTA, said the decision to drop him a few weeks ago was very quick following the allegations.

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Prior to the college admissions scandal, she said she doesn't "care about school"

Apparently, Olivia Jade wants to go back to school despite all those YouTube videos that suggested otherwise. Back in March, it was revealed that her mom, Fuller House actress Lori Loughlin, and dad, Mossimo Giannulli, had scammed Jade's way into the University of Southern California. Now, Loughlin faces jail time, and Jade lost out on plenty of lucrative ad partnerships.

According to Us Weekly, "Olivia Jade wants to go back to USC," per a source. "She didn't get officially kicked out and she is begging the school to let her back in." Another source though ousted Jade's real motivation to the publication. "She knows they won't let her in, so she's hoping this info gets out," they shared. "She wants to come out looking like she's changed, learned life lessons and is growing as a person, so she for sure wants people to think she is interested in her education."

Jade previously shared in a YouTube video she's in college for the "experience of like game days, partying" rather than the education. She also said, "I don't know how much of school I'm going to attend... I don't really care about school, as you guys all know." Though these statements were made prior to the scandal coming to light, her brand partnerships didn't come into question until her parents were indicted.

Right now, despite previous reports that Jade and her sister would both be dropping out of USC, Jade's enrollment has been placed on hold—meaning she cannot register for classes, or even withdraw from the school—until her parents' court case comes to a close. Then, the school will make its own decision as to how Jade will be affected. I think, either way, she should have to pay off a few of her classmates' loans for all the BS she pulled.