After Her Mother Was Murdered, Sarah Perry Wrote A Memoir Celebrating Her Life

Illustration By Kayla Kern

‘After the Eclipse’ is about life, death, and finding home

The following feature appears in the September 2017 issue of NYLON and has been updated since original publication.

“I always try to say the book is about my mother who was murdered, not about the murder of my mother,” Sarah Perry explains of After the Eclipse, her profoundly moving memoir which explores the systemic misogyny and classism in small-town America, and revolves around the life of Perry’s mother, Crystal, who shines from the borders of this often unbearably dark story as bright as the sun on a summer day. 

In 1994, 30-year-old Crystal Perry was assaulted and murdered in the rural Maine home she shared with her then-12-year-old daughter, Sarah; it would be another 12 years before Crystal’s murderer was arrested. After the Eclipse is a powerful account of those years, a time in which Sarah was shuffled from house to house, never exactly finding a home; was, unbeknownst to her, considered a possible suspect in her mother’s death; and worked to rebuild her own life, following its utter devastation. The latter might seem an impossible task considering what Sarah experienced, but what becomes clear while reading is that the foundation that Crystal built for her daughter was one of inestimable strength, and would stand Sarah in good stead. 

Here, we speak with Perry about putting this experience into words, and why we need to stop blaming women for the crimes committed against them. 

Was there any specific moment when you realized that you needed to tell this story?
As a kid, I always wanted to be a writer, but I definitely consider this book the book I needed to write before I could do anything else. So once it started, it had that feeling of real urgency or necessity. [It was when] the lead investigator told me that there had been a DNA match that was a turning point, because it brought it all back into the present, and it became more necessary to really look at a lot of these things that had happened in the past and really examine my feelings about it and what it all had meant.  

Do you think that you would have still been able to write the book if the murderer had never been caught?
I don’t know... I think I could have, and it would have had a lot of the same guiding principles. It was really important to me that the book not be primarily a whodunit, or a typical true crime thing. But it would have been harder to find the deciding moment of when I would sit down and do this—that would have been more complicated. Or it might have been my age approaching her age, because that was really powerful to me, so it might have happened around the same moment anyway. 

The book balances stories from your life, both before and after your mother's death, and that of her own, from the time before you were born. How did you decide to use this structure?
I wanted to try to give my life and my mom’s life equal weight, if I could, and to make her life as compelling, if not more compelling, than the story of her death. I always try to say the book is about my mother who was murdered, not about the murder of my mother, but then you face the challenge of how to make what is otherwise, arguably, an ordinary life compelling for readers. So then I thought about what specific challenges I had in life, and what things she went through that would make the story something more than just a sad story of a great mom who died. I think that compelled me to highlight the class issues and the challenges of her growing up in a town where there were really pretty specific expectations for women—how women should behave and what women could do and couldn’t do. So I wanted to get inside her experience and think about things other than this huge event that ended her life, think about what other stories were there within her life. I guess that’s what led to doing a totally different timeline for that. But then, of course, I realized eventually that it couldn’t be braided the whole time. At some point, she’s not there anymore because her life isn’t there to hold the other threads, so it has to come together and just be me. 

Many women who are victims of violent crimes are blamed for their victimhood, and held responsible in some way for what has been done to them. This is something that happened to your mother, and you grapple with this issue in the book. How did you balance your personal feelings with addressing these larger, society-wide issues?
Violence and misogyny in America today are, for lack of a better phrase, really scary. I think people are motivated to get all the details of a story like this so that they can check off all the ways that that women’s life doesn’t resemble their own; the deep motivation for that is to believe that it’s not going to happen to you. It was really important to me to make a connection between everyday misogynistic comments and sexist expectations and violent crimes like this, because it’s all of a piece. Are we going to respect women’s autonomy and personal decision-making and understand that everyone is living by their own values and no one deserves to be punished for any of that, or are we not? 

Because I think a person [like her mother's murderer] doesn’t come from nowhere. Why did he think that he had the right to come in and demand sex and then take it and then kill a person? What about his upbringing—which was not that unique—led him to believe that he could do that? I don’t think people do more than they think they’re allowed to do. 

That's definitely the cultural conversation that needs to be happening, in which we question why men feel entitled to do the things they do to women. It's really dismaying to think about because it's such a huge task, and it extends beyond just how men treat women, and into the way white people treat people of color, and really how all oppressors treat their victims. It can feel really overwhelming.
It does get to feeling that way, especially under the current president. That someone can get elected after the pussy grabbing debacle, that was just the most exhausting moment of 2016, I thought. That story came out and so many people, bless their hearts, were like, “Oh, he’ll never get elected now.” And I was like, “Sure, we’ll see.” Living in my super liberal Brooklyn bubble, but coming from somewhere much more rural, I feel like a lot of people got very comfortable and really thought that Trump wouldn’t win, and it was like, “Who’s gonna vote for this person?" And I was like, “I know people who are gonna vote for this guy.”

After the Eclipse is out from Houghton Mifflin Harcourt on September 26. 

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Which one, though?

Kim Kardashian is suing fast fashion retailer Missguided, claiming that the brand uses her image to spark interest in and sell its clothing. This lawsuit comes a few days after a theory, that she may be selling her own vintage clothing designs to fast fashion brands so that they can rip them off, made its rounds on the internet.

According to The Hollywood Reporter, Kardashian's attorney Michael Kump writes that "Missguided systematically uses the names and images of Kardashian and other celebrities to advertise and spark interest in its website and clothing." Other celebrities that the brand has tagged on its Instagram include Cardi B and Dua Lipa, along with the other members of the Kardashian-Jenner family.

Kump uses the example of the Yeezy dress that Kim posted to Instagram, which was ripped off by the brand within a couple of hours. "Recently, for example, after Kardashian posted a photo on Instagram of a dress that was made for her... Missguided quickly responded with its own Instagram post... boasting that it would be ripping off the design within 'a few days,'" Kump continues. "Missguided purposefully inserted Kardashian's Instagram username (@KimKardashian) into its post to capitalize on her celebrity status and social media following in promoting the sale of its upcoming product."

Kump also draws attention to the fact that the brand uses Kardashian's name so much that it may lead others to believe that she works with the brand, which, he wants to make clear, she does not: "Missguided's U.S. website has included entire pages that are devoted solely to the sale of clothing inspired by Kardashian, and on which Kardashian's name and likeness are prominently used without her permission to promote the products."

Some are noting that it's suspicious that Kardashian is not suing Fashion Nova, as well, since the brand most recently ripped off a vintage Mugler gown that Kardashian wore. Though it may be harder for Kardashian to make any claims since timestamps have revealed that the dress was made before Kardashian premiered the dress.



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He previously claimed to be a victim of a hate crime

According to reports, actor Jussie Smollett has been arrested by the Chicago Police Department. As CNN outlines, he's facing a felony charge of disorderly conduct for allegedly filing a false report. If found guilty, he could face up to three years in prison.

The Empire star previously claimed that he was the victim of a racist and homophobic hate crime on January 29. He alleged that two masked men attacked him, tied a noose around his neck, poured bleach on him, and yelled, "This is MAGA country!" Brothers Abimbola and Olabinjo Osundairo were eventually arrested and brought in for questioning, during which news broke that one appeared on Empire and the other worked as Smollett's personal trainer. Now, according to both men and reports, it's being said that Smollett paid them to "orchestrate" the attack.

Smollett's attorneys, Todd Pugh and Victor Henderson, have issued a statement regarding their client's defense. "Like any other citizen, Mr. Smollett enjoys the presumption of innocence, particularly when there has been an investigation like this one where information, both true and false, has been repeatedly leaked," they told Deadline. "Given these circumstances, we intend to conduct a thorough investigation and to mount an aggressive defense."

If this is all true, this unfortunate turn of events should in no way take away from the fact that there is an abundant number of racially and sexually motivated attacks happening all of the time. They also still remain vastly underreported, so it's essential to listen to alleged victims, always.