Let Thrill You Kill You Take You On A Liberating Joy Ride


Watch Fei-Fei’s video for “Riding On Your Misery” here

What would you do if you had to start all over again? For L.A.-based artist Fei-Fei, the answer was easy.

On the cusp of a promising DJ career, a few years ago, Fei-Fei made the decision to trade in her CDJs for something she felt like she could retain complete control over. And to her, that meant songwriting—an endeavor she had zero experience with. Forced to start completely from scratch—i.e. singing lessons, guitar practice, and nights spent learning how to sound engineer—what was eventually born from the ashes of her club days was the '80s-leaning, dance-friendly THRILL YOU KILL YOU project. The result of several years worth of experimentation, self-discovery, and grappling with external expectations, to Fei-Fei, THRILL YOU KILL YOU was a liberation from the feeling that she had to be "a version of me that I thought the world wanted to see."

Initially held back by the ever-relatable fear of just not feeling "good enough," it was a long journey to get to a place where she even felt comfortable with herself and sharing her own emotions. Because, at the end of the day, it's not easy being a woman—let alone a woman of color—in the music industry. And though Fei-Fei bristles at the designation "Asian female artist," she does admit that her identity has influenced her to an extent. Not only has it forced her to chase a dream that she didn't think was possible at one point, but it also instilled a passion within her to boost other women trying to break into music.

"I really, really care about creating visibility for other female producers, engineers, and artists," she says, adding that she hopes her story will inspire others to take a leap of faith and take what is creatively and conceptually rightfully theirs. 

After all, Fei-Fei sure is. In line with her ethos of complete creative control, she also has a hand in all the visuals for THRILL YOU KILL YOU, including the brand-new video for "Riding On Your Misery." Co-directed with Alex Benzer and edited by Fei-Fei, the video stars Steph Whittier and Fei-Fei (who else?) as tumultuous lovers who waffle between intimate, at-home moments and very public fights. A video that has a distinct DIY feel to it—all grainy iPhone footage, self-mixed production, and raw songwriting straight from Fei-Fei's journal—it's a thrilling, late-night escapade through the streets of L.A. that Fei-Fei says finally feels "100 percent authentically me." And if that's something you can't get behind, then we're not sure what is. 

Watch "Riding On Your Misery," below. 

THRILL YOU KILL YOU's debut EP drops October 12.

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It marks her third duet with Nas

Here are some words that I never expected to read or hear again: There is a new song with Amy Winehouse. But here we are in 2019, and Salaam Remi has granted me a wish. On Valentine's Day, the Grammy-nominated producer and frequent Winehouse collaborator (also responsible for hits like Miguel's "Come Through & Chill") released "Find My Love" which features rapper Nas and that powerful and haunting voice that I have come to love and cherish so dearly.

Representatives for Remi said that the Winehouse vocals were from an old jam session the two had. Remi was a producer on both of Winehouse's albums, Frank and Back to Black. "Find My Love" marks the third time Winehouse and Nas have done duets under the direction of Remi. They were previously heard together on "Like Smoke," a single from her 2011 posthumous album Amy Winehouse Lioness: Hidden Treasures, and "Cherry Wine" from Nas' 2012 album Life Is Good. Winehouse died of alcohol poisoning on July 23, 2011, before they could complete production on her third album. My heart is still broken about it as she is by far my favorite artist.

"Find My Love" is set to appear on Remi's Do It for the Culture 2, a collection of songs curated by him. Check it out, below.



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"In the midst of chaos there's opportunity"

Following the travesty that was Fyre Festival, Ja Rule wants to take another stab at creating a music festival. Good luck getting that off the ground.

On Thursday, the rapper spoke to TMZ, where he revealed that he was planning to relaunch Icon, an app used to book entertainers, which is similar to Billy McFarland's Fyre app. He told the outlet that he wanted to create a festival similar to Fyre to support it.

"[Fyre Festival] is heartbreaking to me. It was something that I really, really wanted to be special and amazing, and it just didn't turn out that way, but in the midst of chaos there's opportunity, so I'm working on a lot of new things," he says. He then gets into the fact that he wants to form a music festival. "[Fyre] is the most iconic festival that never was... I have plans to create the iconic music festival, but you didn't hear it from me."

Ja Rule actually doesn't seem to think he is at all responsible for what came from Fyre Fest, claiming in a Twitter post that he was "hustled, scammed, bamboozled, hood winked, led astray." Even if that's his feeling, he should realize that anyone involved with Fyre shouldn't ever try their hand at music festivals again.