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Rachel Crow Wants You To Love The Body You're In

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The singer tells us about her own relationship with her body, and what she learned from filming her "Up All Night" video

Rachel Crow has been in the limelight since her early teens, and isn't stepping out of it anytime soon. First finding success on the inaugural season of The X Factor in the U.S., she's flexed her talents across television and film in the years since, but she remains dedicated to her original love of music. Today, Crow shares with us the music video for her song "Up All Night." Ahead of the release, she chatted with NYLON about her inspirations and how this gorgeous production was nearly ruined for her by her own relationship with her body.

The inspiration behind "Up All Night" is an idealized love story, one that was never meant to last longer than a short while, one that ended without any sort of drama. "For two weeks solid, we hung out every single day and would FaceTime all hours of the night," Crow described to me. "I even went to New York when he was in New York. We hung out, he came with me to get a tattoo. I just really, really liked him a lot." But then, nothing. "We just stopped talking. It wasn't a bad thing; we weren't 'together,' so it wasn't a breakup. I was bummed, but I wasn't heartbroken. I was thankful for the experience and getting to spend time with him because he was wonderful." When she wound up at the same party as him months later, and all those feelings came back, she knew she had to write this song immediately.

When it came time to make a music video, Crow took creative control from start to finish. She poured into it every positive emotion possible, to make it "an intense, happy love song." Although traditionally, rain and the color blue may be used to symbolize sadness, Crow associates them with the exact opposite, and wanted to guarantee those things were viewed that way by everyone. "I Googled every high-res picture on the internet of rain and colors and everything I wanted, and wrote this intense treatment from start to finish that had color blocking, where my choreography would go, what the routine would be," she explained. She wasn't too stressed about the specific dance moves—she had Richy Jackson, her choreographer and also Lady Gaga's (!!!), to work that out.

And yet, despite having so much control over the process, Crow hated the initial edit of the music video. She'd thought it was everything she wanted, but she hadn't been able to control her own perception of herself. "I was down and out; crying, and I wasn't even angry… I thought I looked really amazing on the day [of shooting], I saw the monitors," Crow explained. "I couldn't believe that I looked like that in front of people or that anyone saw that angle of me all day. I was mortified and embarrassed."

Watching the video, it's hard to understand what it is Crow saw; she looks stunning and powerful from the first frame to the last. But her inability to see herself how others see her is akin to feelings so many of us have, when we're mortified at the sight of a candid photo of ourselves, shocked to see ourselves not at our carefully curated selfie-angle best. And it's all related to deeper societal issues having to do with the beauty and body-image expectations of women.

Crow said, of the pressure to look like models and social media stars: "We feel we have to alter ourselves to look like that." She admitted, "It was the first time in my entire life that I looked at [my work] and felt like I needed to change something about myself. And that was wrong… I felt awful afterward for feeling that."

Which is why, now, she's talking about it to emphasize the commonality of the experience, that we all have these reactions, but that we're beautiful no matter what. "We need to stop looking at these beautiful women [on social media] who are editing themselves for this version of something we'll never be able to touch. We're not trying to get there. We're just trying to be 100 percent ourselves."

That's what she came to see of herself in the video, too. She's not retouched or edited, and she embraces that. "I'm really short, and my legs are maybe two feet long," Crow laughed. "And that's okay, because that's who I am. I just want people to see that I'm proud of myself for this, and I want them to feel proud of themselves. Every day that we get past that shitty feeling of, Wow, I look terrible. Or, Wow, I hate myself, that makes us amazing and strong, and that's the difference."

Instead of searching for flaws, turn the volume up, enjoy the little bit of nostalgia that might sink in as Crow kicks it with her dancers in the water a la Rihanna's "Umbrella," and only let giddy memories of love keep you up all night. None of that negativity will fly here, thanks.

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Photo by Imani Givertz

Premiering today via NYLON

Small Talks, aka Cayley Spivey, has come a long way since starting a band, then becoming the entire band herself and forging her own fan base from the ground up. On her recent album A Conversation Between Us, she began to unpack any lingering baggage with one particular song: "Teeth." Today, she premieres the accompanying music video exclusively via NYLON.

"'Teeth' is about my personal battle with letting go of the past," Spivey tells NYLON, admitting that it's easily her favorite song off of A Conversation Between Us.

Watch the video for "Teeth" below.

Small Talks - Teeth (Official Music Video) - YouTube www.youtube.com

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Must have been pretty awkward

Taylor Swift and Sophie Turner were guests on the U.K.'s The Graham Norton Show together, which must have been awkward for Turner's husband, Joe Jonas, seeing as he also happens to be Swift's ex. I wonder if his name came up?

The interview doesn't come out until Friday night, but promotional photos show the two sharing a couch. Swift is making an appearance to perform her new single, "ME!" while Turner is promoting her new film, X- Men: Dark Phoenix. But it seems necessary for the two to be asked about Jonas.

Swift was just on the Ellen DeGeneres Show earlier this month, where she brought up the fact that she felt bad for putting Jonas "on blast" on DeGeneres' show back in 2008 by telling the audience that he broke up with her in a record-setting short phone call. But, according to Swift, she and Jonas are chill now, since it happened pretty long ago, which means she's probably already hung out with Turner and maybe even gossiped about him with her.

We can only hope that they get the chance to spill some tea on television.

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Screenshot via YouTube, Photo Courtesy of HBO

"That's! His! Auntie!"

Leslie Jones has rewatched the Game of Thrones finale with a beer in hand, Seth Meyers at her side, and a full camera crew ready to take in all her glorious reactions. Spoilers ahead, but, if you haven't watched last week's episode already, that's kind of on you at this point.

When Jon Snow started to make out with Daenerys, also known as his aunt, only to stab her through the chest moments later, it was emotional whiplash for everyone watching. And, Jones' reactions—both from her first and second viewing—sum it all perfectly.

"That's! His! Auntie! [gagging noises]," Jones says before making an aside about calling the police if her uncle ever tried to do the same. But then the knife goes in, and Jones screams. "Did you see that?!" Jones asks, "Yeah bitch, that's a knife in you." Meyers points out the funniest part of all: "Why are you so upset about someone kissing their aunt but totally fine with someone killing their aunt?" Jones replies, "Because that bitch needed to go," and, well, same.

Other highlights from the comedians' rewatch include comparing Dany's victory speech to a bad improv gig, predicting that their dogs would have less of a reaction to their deaths than Drogon did to his mother's, and more.

Watch all of Jones' reactions from this Late Night clip below.

Game of Jones: Leslie Jones and Seth Watch Game of Thrones' Series Finale youtu.be

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These lyrics are a lot

Robbie Tripp, aka Curvy Wife Guy, is back with a music video, titled "Chubby Sexy," starring his wife and a trio of models. In it, Tripp raps about his bold choice to find women with an average body size attractive.

The video begins with a series of statements laid over some pool water: "Curves are the new high fashion," "Chubby is the new sexy," "We Out Here." Tripp posits that these queens deserve an anthem, which they do. What they do not deserve is this Cursed Song. As he lists all the names he knows to call them by (thick, thicc, and BBW), one model (who I really, really hope was paid well) squirts some lotion down her cleavage, and Tripp begins dancing.

"My girl chubby sexy/ Call her bonita gordita," Tripp states in his chorus, before going on to compare "big booty meat" to the peach emoji. Another thing he mentions is that his wife can't find a belt that fits her waist, and that's why he calls her James and the Giant Peach. He then tries to dab. Here are some of the other Cursed highlights from his, uh, verses:

Got those Khaleesi curves/ Knows how to dragon slay
She like a dude that's woke/ We like a girl that's weighty
Some say a chubby girl that's risky/ But they ain't met a curvy girl that's frisky
Imma dunk that donk like I'm Andrew Wiggins.
Thick like an Amazon/ Built like Big Ben.

Tripp says one thing in the video that I couldn't agree more with: "She don't need a man." No, she does not. Please run. If you must, watch the entire video, below. Or send it to your nemesis!

Robbie Tripp - Chubby Sexy (Official Music Video) www.youtube.com

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See the promo here

It was bound to happen. The Kadashians and Jenners have committed themselves to letting the cameras roll on their lives, for better or for worse. So if you thought that the Jordyn Woods and Tristan Thompson cheating scandal was off limits, you thought wrong. The trailer for Sunday's episode of Keeping Up with the Kardashians was just released, and it involves the famous family working through the fallout of what happened when Woods went to a party at Thompson's house.

The teaser includes the infamous clip of Khloé Kardashian screaming "LIAAAARRRRRR." It's still not explicitly clear who prompted that strong response. She could be responding to Thompson, who clearly isn't always honest. Or she could be reacting to Woods account of the events on Red Table Talk. But the most revealing moment comes when we see Kylie Jenner—who was Woods' best friend before all of this happened—react for the first time.

In a heart-to-heart conversation, momager Kris Jenner says, "For you and Jordyn, it's like a divorce." Kylie only offers this in response: "She fucked up." Based on Woods' version of events—which I'm inclined to believeThompson is the one who fucked up. Still, I'm hoping for some kind of reconciliation between the two longtime friends. Perhaps we'll have to wait until next season for that.

Check out the promo video below.

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